Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
"No Past. No History"
I cut my hair off. The dead strands fell all around me. My dreams are consumed with this overwhelming sense of affection but when I wake this reality overcomes me. I learned something. People's personalities do not change. People may change in ways but the things that make them who they are, will never. This does not include mistakes they've made. As humans we are entitled to our mistakes. It's actually the very thing that makes us human. Often, we forget this. We hold others to a standard based on their mistakes and we say we forgive but we never do. It's disgusting, repulsive and ignorant. Love! Love love love! Despite the risk you may be taking. I'm sick and stale of all the rest.
I cut my hair off. The dead strands fell all around me. My dreams are consumed with this overwhelming sense of affection but when I wake this reality overcomes me. I learned something. People's personalities do not change. People may change in ways but the things that make them who they are, will never. This does not include mistakes they've made. As humans we are entitled to our mistakes. It's actually the very thing that makes us human. Often, we forget this. We hold others to a standard based on their mistakes and we say we forgive but we never do. It's disgusting, repulsive and ignorant. Love! Love love love! Despite the risk you may be taking. I'm sick and stale of all the rest.
Friday, February 19, 2010
I feel like I'm dancing... all the time. And if my days continue like this I could be happy forever. It doesn't matter if I have a man at my side or someone to talk to when my day goes wrong, it's not about that. It's about having myself to depend on. Knowing that regardless of the way everything else turns out, I will be okay. I am content. I have everything I could ever ask for. Now I just need to build on what I've got. It's about knowing that I am worth it. Knowing that if I take that leap out of my cage I will soar. So show me something to leap for!
Monday, February 15, 2010
I am not hardcore. I am soft. I am warm. I let myself feel for others in a deep and profound way. I am not built of steal. I am not capable of walking away unscathed. I am in it, even when I hide that fact. Everything means something to me. Just thought I'd let you know. I've got a feeling about this. Not good or bad, just a feeling. And I'm going to make it worth while.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
"Call it quits or get a grip. Say you wanted a solution, you just wanted to be missed."
Get rid of the excess. Watch your balloons float away into the sky and realize that you already knew that there was nothing there. When it happens, it'll be impossible to let go. What is meant to be will be. I don't need them to need me.
Friday, February 12, 2010
Helpful Hints
2.)When you have to be up at 7am, go to bed instead of sitting on facebook.
3.)In beginning a friendship or at least a something-ship, do not have the first question you ask me be something rude, ridiculous, and disgusting.
4.)When you say your gunna do something, do it. No one likes a fake, flake or floozy.
5.)If the guy you thought about forevers with turns out to be a loser, move on, don't waste your time trying to figure out what you did wrong. Cuz chances are that you didn't do anything, he's just a loser.
6.)Say your sorry, only if you mean it. No matter what.
7.)When things don't go your way, try a new way.
8.)Put yourself first and let no one convince you that you're selfish for it.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Sunday, February 7, 2010
-T&S
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
It's Poetry
"Among other things, you'll find that you're not the first person who was ever confused and frightened and even sickened by human behavior. You're by no means alone on that score, you'll be excited and stimulated to know. Many, many men have been just as troubled morally and spiritually as you are right now. Happily, some of them kept records of their troubles. You'll learn from them - if you want to. Just as someday, if you have something to offer, someone will learn something from you. It's a beautiful reciprocal arrangement. And it isn't education. It's history. It's poetry."
-Catcher and the Rye
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Damn! Shouldn't have done that! Shouldn't have looked. Shouldn't have taken myself back to that place. I'm moving forward. Or at least trying to. Yes I miss my friend but it's not worth it. And what I do makes no difference in this situation. I just hope it's not all crappy when you come back. Cuz I said goodbye. I've said goodbye more in the last two years than I have ever said it in my life. And it's not just because I was angry or because I didn't get what I wanted. I said goodbye because it was right for me. And you weren't. You weren't right and neither were they. But I always fell back into it. I always gave you and all of them another chance. Boy was I wrong. Always left disappointed. For once will someone be real. Will you fight for a compromise instead of a conversion? I promise you now, I won't fall back again. It's done. I let go of the dream. I let go of the friendship. I let go of all of the YOUs. I let go.
“I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence, but it comes from within. It is there all the time.”
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