Put it all out there. Be open. Work hard. Love hard. Let the shit go. Keep the good like memories in a box.

Yes Summer has begun and I'm happy to say that I've done a lot already. I've had adventures with my edc friends in walmart. And also late night mostly naked swims with my Hollis. A trip to Long Beach for time with my Bessy (And a Pizooki for two!) and also an amazing afternoon with my favorite aunt-of-an-ex-boyfriend at Bruxie. Which you know included a bacon egg and cheddar Bruxie with waffle fries and a fresh strawburry shake! Ahhh! I love my life. I'm gunna try to journal this summer. And I'm also going to be decorating my new room at my new house, very excited for that! I finally feel like I've let go of all the bad shit in my life, including but not limited to the broken boys I've spent far too much time trying to fix. (Ali, David, Jacob, and you can add Trevers to that list.) I'm so glad I called my own bluff on that one. Anywhoo... from previous posts you can see that I have a lot of plans for this summer and I'm seriously anxious to get started on it all and even to add more things to my list. I'm feeling happy. Even though everything isn't perfect, I'm still feeling ok.
Thanks to the big man and also to the good friends.Bonfire on Friday!
I got a pocket full of sunshine!

"You think for the best. You will always be hopeful but you want the best of people. Only if you could make a recipe and cook it up for the perfect being. Only thing you can hope for is compromise and change... living is learning and loving is passion."
You knew me so well.

The official start to my Summer 2011 begins first thing Thursday morning, as I am to finish my final exams tomorrow afternoon. So I thought I'd get started on a little list of things I want to do this summer.

Buy a Long Board
Six Flags
Learn to Long Board
New Job
Sea World
Throw the Best Bonfire!
Meet a Good Guy
More Shows!
New Wardrobe?
Attend a Festival
Vegas
Take a Photo Challenge
Flirt More!
New Friends
Re-Invent!
Big Bear
New Hobby
Get my Tattoo
Bone Free Summer
Sew Purse
Party at the New House (Pina Coladas in the pool!)
Santa Barbara
Pillow Fight
Kini Body
Do at least 5 free photoshoots
CSUSB ----> CU-Boulder!?

Turned out to be a lot longer than I planned.

"The happiest people don't have the best of everything they just make the best of everything."
I love my faith and it's movement in me.

Simmer. Slimmer. Summer. Slip.
I've forgotten. I've lost something. I know that to stop is what is best. I've lost everything. It has never been enough. I've never found satisfaction or fulfillment. I struggle to pray. I struggle to realize. I struggle, best, to let go. No one can hold me like I need to be held. There is so much more to explore, to understand, to soak up. Take me.