I don't know much about patience or doing the right thing when the wrong thing feels so right. I don't know how to keep my mouth shut about something I feel so intensely about. I don't know how to be the perfect girl or how to make a good first impression. I don't know how not to think naughty thoughts and I don't know how to slow down. I don't know how to grow or to disconnect from those I once loved. Once loved always loved. There's a part of me that went with you when you left. And parts of you I take with me on my journeys to come. You made me stronger and I am blessed to have known you. I will change, inside and outside. Yet some bits of me will always be the same. But I can't ever apologize for wanting. Wanting more, wanting less, wanting to run, wanting to un-run, wanting things to be the same or different, wanting to un-change it all and go back to the start. Eternally an optimist. Eternally hopeful. Eternally yours, but only certain versions of you. Tell me how to un-want and I'll do it. Tell me how to bring you back. You make me stronger and remind me everyday, how to forgive. Forgiveness is key.