Once you have felt love, you spend the rest of your life searching for it and coming up short. Because first love, though damaging as it may be, is powerful. It's moving. I am still convinced I have never been in love. I have loved. And I have been loved, but I have never been in love. I believe when you fall in love you never fall out. So instead I say, I have fallen for love... numerous times, and here I am, still searching. Please, leave me with books. And keep me with my God because a life built on destruction is not one I'd like to participate in. I surrender.